Status 4-03-15*
Yesterday
DID make it to therapy, feeling good about progress there. Therapist IMPRESSED I was able to stop cleaning mid-project and finish the next day. So I practiced MORE and didn’t do squat for the rest of the day. (Actually feel MUCH better today, my energy was wiped).
I also did make it to Trader Joes where I got a small bunch of daffodils to place on my now clean table in celebration of spring (cleaning). Then I made a great lunch out leftover brown rice and kale. Turned them into a relish fried rice combo.
After that, I stretched out on the couch “to rest” and enjoyed a day of mostly watching junk TV and documentaries. I also saw the movie Chef on Netflix which I really enjoyed.
Today
After this, going to tackle the living room and then the REALLY HARD stuff. Getting rid of more books, DVDs and sentimental Tchotchkes from off and in my whoppin’ big computer hutch. Sigh. Will be a great day to see if I can let go, feel feelings, and NOT head for chips.
xoxoxoxoxo
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Mad props Laurie…cleaning is my nemesis. Cooking…love, cleaning…not so much.
Proving yet again, Cassie my friend, we are SOOooo similar in some ways. 😉
Sounds lovely friend
I’m tired out. Life’s busy.
My eating was a bit heavier this week. Craving sweet treats like crazy too. Lame.
Ahh, the bumps in the road. For me, eating more and craving treats is either tiredness (trying to cram energy down my gullet) or I feel I’ve been missing out on something – affection, recognition, the chance to do something I want – treats are life hole fillers for me. (Chips are the rage patrol). I’m betting with all of the self reflection you’ve been up to, you’ll discover something from this challenge. xoxoxoxoxox
i think I did hit it today HARD on the head of the nail..
I have been wanting pizza, froyo and cake and ice-cream… and for reasons of my haunted diet prison hell past, I have been ‘resisting’ having these things..
Ive been trying to ‘re-create these things with ‘diet friendly’ versions that are for one, NOT working out, and for two, NOT satisfying the craving (partly because they aren’t working out, and partly because they are not WHAT I REALLY want),
what this is creating is
feelings of deprivation,
the continued craving,
eating and feeling hungry trying to fill the void (i’d of been better off to just have it)
How I came to this realization today… I had a recipe for a blueberry pan cake.. no not pancake, but a pan cake, meaning a cake made in a cast iron skillet, it looked good, the recipe seemed simple/easy enough, I whipped it up, and tried to turn it into ‘cupcakes’ instead of making the ‘pan cake’ I even used REAL sugar, the only substitution I used was for one almond milk (it said whole milk or whatever milk you have), I ommitted the 2tbs of butter, and instead of 3 whole eggs, I used 1 whole egg and 2 egg whites..
well it didn’t turn out AT all, just didn’t set up and cook AND as I was standing over the trash scooping the disgusting mess out of the muffin tin cups it occurred to me it was a ‘breakfast’ recipe, meaning it was not going to be ‘cake’ as I’d dreamily anticipated, it was more of an ‘egg bake’ type something..
WELL, this coming to a head made me realize I was NOT getting my craving satisfied, with this flop, and then.. suddenly id Dawned (doh) on me.. and I talked out loud, and said wow, I think I need to just have a slice of pizza, a piece of cake with some ice-cream, and schedule in a trip to froyo, all this stuff will settle.. DUH.. hmmmmmmm
and yes.. a bit of over-tired-ness in there as well, frosted with a touch of PMS.. yikes
Hey gal Tired+PMS = CRAVINGS! But I so agree with your findings. Don’t waste time making stuff you don’t want to eat. Even on WW fit in the REAL thing. Doh! The number of times I made some wacky fake item to save calories. I admit, once in awhile the item is tasty (though NOT the same as the original). I refuse to eat anything I don’t like anymore. I would rather be hungry (Wow!) My ice-cream bowl now is a tiny ramekin and my ice-cream spoon is a tiny espresso spoon. I do that because I LIKE full fat (often homemade) REAL ice-cream better than Skinny Cows or so forth. My serving is probably 250 calories maybe, and I don’t eat ice-cream every day, so we buy the pint cartons (THIS used to be my ice-cream bowl, the whole pint!), Anyway, I do that because this is about how much I need to be satisfied when I WANT ice-cream vs. PMS or Tired or comfort. Hang in there! You are making progress every day xoxoxoxox
thank you, your encouragement and support means a LOT to me !!!
I am getting there, every day I learn, and i will take your approach here.. the small dishes help with my food helpings, surely they will with treats, and I LOVE the smaller spoon idea, I used it before, I have 2 really cute fun baby spoons HA green even not sure when/where I dropped that ball.. hmmmm.. oh and i have some super fun ‘salsa bowls’ that would make PERFECT treat dishes.. whoooohooo thanks again friend.. now I REALLY want fun treats ha ha
I love my tiny spoons. I used to do the small plate and dish trick as a trick to eat less. Now, it’s just how much I like to eat. Cool, no? Have fun with your new snack size pursuits of food you actually LIKE! hahaha
Good for you! Struggling with urges to overeat. So far, have kept it below a binge, but that’s the best I can say. I think it would be better if I had work to distract me. Too much free time. I don’t feel energetic enough to tackle all the things I should be doing, which is causing those icky anxiety feelings. *sigh* Off to celebrate with one side of the family today, that should help.
Ah Amy, I’m not surprised with the family loss and challenges and the emotions this would stir. Hooray you’ve thus far, kept the binge level down. Progress. I relate to not wanting to tackle things – as that is how Mark and I got to live in the dusty mortifying house for all of these months. Sometimes you just need to let things slide until you are ready. Other times, it’s breaking them down in very small chunks that helps. This time for me, I used time vs. project to make cleaning project. When the time was over, the cleaning stopped. It helped me break through my compulsive all or nothing “I MUST complete the ENTIRE room in every detail” overwhelming messages I tend to send my brain. Hard to let the jobs be unfinished for several days, but on the plus side, things are finally getting done. But again, sometimes you just need the space to let it slide while you deal with your emotions. I’m here and the BCs are here to support you ANY TIME you need to vent, cry, ponder or celebrate.xoxoxoxoxox