Status 6-19-15*
Yesterday
I had an interesting day in therapy where we addressed my concerns about HOW UNMOTIVATED I AM! Usually, this is a sign that depression is sneaking up on me. But I feel GREAT! I’m sleeping, I’m upbeat, I’m excited for things, people and activities in my life right now, so what’s the deal with me putting off shows, or housework or even taking my vitamins?
You’ll NEVER GUESS! It’s because of my successful mindfulness. Wow! I’m not as motivated because I’m not motivating myself with the inner stick all day every day. And I’m not worried at night – probably why my sleep has been better lately. Not to say this show and blog are horrible tasks I MUST DO, but there are days when I haven’t wanted to, and I did, just BECAUSE I SHOULD. No more! I will write and record when moved to do so. This will vary with my other busyness, things in my own life that need pondering and the amount of participation. This is a WHOPPIN’ new idea. I will get to the housework when I do. I have never in the past allowed my house of dusty horrors to last forever, and my therapist assures me I won’t now. She says people pay BIG BUCKS to go to a retreat. I’m just on my own STAY-treat, right here. I’m not lazy, I’m recharging my emotional batteries. Cool beans! This thought actually motivates me to do a little more and not feel pressure about it.
Today
Excited that my first professional quality mic is arriving today! (Downside is I don’t have a window other than 8am – 7pm). So I’m puttering around here, writing more segments for my next episode, studying phonics and watching America’s Got Talent. That is really a cheerful show. I have never seen it before as we don’t have regular TV and it just showed up on Hulu for Roku this year. Fun! I may also do some recordings if the mic arrives early enough to test it. That would inspire me to more practice before class tomorrow. Oh, and I also took my vitamins, so I guess I AM coming out of my Zen space long enough to take care of a few things.
Edited: HOORAY! Mic is here. Now to have fun figuring everything out and then to test its sound. How exciting, and somehow scary. Good thing I’ve been practicing bravery! I can tell myself, no worries. We are just taking one more step in the journey.
Have a great day BCs!
xoxoxoxoxox
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Laurie,
I’m looking (or, should I write “listening”?) forward to hearing what you have to say via your new professional microphone. Pretty soon, you’ll be so good in your sound studio (with sound effects), we’ll think you’re at your Next to Upper Zen spot on a hot summer’s day when you’re really just staying cool in your House of Dusty Horrors.
Smiles!
♡eM
Hi eM, there is surely a learning curve to mic technique when the mic is so much more sensitive. I’m having fun with it though! I laugh when you say I can redo the next to upper Zen place in studio. I WISH it were so easy. But besides the natural sound effects and snafus, it is the walking and the hiking that unlocks my “show self”, if that makes sense. The sitting and chatting inside Laurie is a different character all together. Maybe I WILL try it though, to do a show inside, just to see what it’s like one day. xoxoxoxox
Check in for me…I think I’m doing really well. I’m working toward my weightloss goals, but in a very non-obsessive sort of way. I took Saturday off to celebrate my anniversary, but I didn’t use it as an opportunity to binge. I’m starting to feel like I honestly don’t want to binge. I want to eat to feel comfortably full, and that is all. DH and I were talking about these light turkey hot dogs that I had bought. I really bought them for me, but I didn’t care that he had eaten some. He commented on how they weren’t that good and I said to him, “I thought they were fine. I often don’t really care how food tastes, as long as it isn’t bad. If it isn’t bad and it makes me feel full, that is really all I care about.” And, this is so true! Is that a good thing, or a bad thing? I hope it just is. I’ve never been a foodie. I’ve eaten a lot of junk because it feels good going down and is easy to get. Now I’m trying to eat healthier food that still tastes good and makes me feel full.
Anyway, because life is about so much more than food….I spent a wonderful day yesterday relaxing at the lake. My friend and I spent a couple of hours just floating on the pontoon and chatting, it was so great! I have my last classes for the summer today. I’ll be so happy to have them done and over with!
Have a good one, BCs!
Hi Amy, it is SO good to hear the quiet confidence in your update today. It sounds very much like you are learning your own personal balance. I love hearing about the other, non-food adventures you are having. It sounds like heaven to float on pontoons and chat with a friend. Hooray! Remember, I always love to hear from you, but don’t worry if other adventures take precedence. It’s great to journal and to record our lives, but I also think it’s important to just take time to experience our lives without worrying about selfies, recording, posting or other measures. Hmmm, methinks I might be speaking more about me than you – however, floating with friends IS a wonderful picture to contemplate, thanks for sharing it. As to the food, I think when you are happy and your body feels good with the food you’ve chosen to eat and the way you’ve chosen to eat it, that’s all that matters. I have friends who love Diet Shakes – easier for them, and not a big deal. For me, belch! I was SO glad to leave protein powder behind with my Body for Life weight lifting days. Just not my thing. I AM a cooking fanatic, taste and texture enjoying foodie – even though I am a very, picky eater. LOL xoxoxoxoxox
it’s super awesome when we find the ‘normal’.. er.. wait.. okay, I take that back cuz ive yet to be or actually ever WANT to be ‘normal’.. so let’s say ‘natural’ calm..
ive found myself in a stooper at times like, I KNOW there MUST be SOMETHING I was/am/should be SUPOSED to do.. there’s got to be something nagging me… all to find NOPE!
YAY for that =-)
New toys.. fun times…. woohoooo
I’ll say, even tho not ‘needing’ a retreat, or ‘wanting to spend big bucks’ it sure sounds like fun =-)
I’m with you Dawny. A retreat sounds GREAT! And it is weird to not feel as driven in my mind as usual. Hope your summer continues to be fun and your awesomeness can shine for all! PS, I finished cutting in your half marathon audio for the next show with Mark’s announcer, and it turned out really well. xoxoxoxo