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Ep 0141 – Mommy Would You Love Me?

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It’s emotional as I ponder the complex and tender relationship between my mom and me.

Podcast Recap

I’m back down to my local park recording from the trusty old podcast rock. Mark and I are busy getting ready to go back home to Washington to lay my mother’s ashes to rest. It’s emotional letting go as I remember my complex feelings around my relationship with Mom. Comments from Petra, Dawny and Mark. Dawny brings some fresh summer-time Foolish Fun. We greet New BCs Rebecca and Kelly from Michigan. The Coffee Klatch is reopened for show supporters. How to switch the country of the iTunes store. BC Jo from the UK’s kind review on iTunes UK. A poem I wrote many years ago – originally, called, ‘Daddy would you love me?’, changed to honor my Mother.

Cute little girl from 1935

My mom at two years old.

Laurie at two in pony tails with red ribbons in a sailer dress

Me as a two-year-old rockin’ my sailor dress that Mom, a talented seamstress, made for me.

Young lady Laurie with a braid over one shoulder and Mom in a formal looking over at a lit birthday cake

Mom wishes me happy 22nd birthday in my apartment with a cake she’d made me. Mom was also a talented baker.

New BCs

Mentioned

Last show and comments (Including Dawny and Mark

Day 139 and comments – where Petra responds to Dawny and me.

Our Social Media TAG is #CODBCS

Ways to support the show financially

Mommy Would you Love Me?
by Laurie Weaver
Link to the original version on ToonaCat.com

Carla colored in her great big book
And took it to Mommy for a look.

Mommy would you love me if I colored rainbows in the sky?
Oh Carla dear, I’d miss you if you went away so high.

Carla pulled her shoes on,
The new ones nice and white

And Mommy tied them up,
Not too loose, or tight.

Mommy would you love me if I marched a Zillion miles?

Carla Dear, if you marched ALL that way, how could I see your pretty smiles?

Carla dug the dirt, with her little hoe.
While Mommy planted flowers in a nice, neat, pretty row.

Mommy would you love me if I dug the biggest hole of all?
Oh Carla Dear, it would scare me silly to think that you might fall!

Carla splashed while Mommy Scrubbed, Giggling silly in the tub.

Mommy would you love me if I blew bubbles across the sea?

Oh Carla dear, how could I get your ears all squeaky clean if you were so far from me?

Carla snuggled onto Mommy’s lap, eye still sleepy from her nap.

Mommy, won’t you love me for ANYTHING I do?

No Carla Dear, my Dearest Dear,
I’ll only ever love you just because you’re you.

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Foolish Fun Announcer: Mark Weaver
Foolish Funner: Dawny

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

Sounds used in Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro

  • Slide Whistle sounds
    http://www.freesound.org/people/plingativator/sounds/188873/
  • Background Tune/Beat
    http://www.freesound.org/people/siakitty/sounds/38478/
  • Girl’s Laughter
    http://www.freesound.org/people/choplin/sounds/109759/
  • Phone Ring
    http://www.freesound.org/people/winsx87/sounds/152028/
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Ep 0140 – Mark The Meditator and ‘Jo’ Many BCs!

Laurie wearing a white shirt and sunhat smiles under a tree
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It’s hot as blazes but I’m pretty comfy in Mark’s old T-shirt sitting under a shady tree on the podcast rock down at my local park.

Podcast Recap

Inspired by the morning meditation Mark and I have been doing, I let go of all the conditions I place on loving myself. An update from Brave Petra about her Instagram post with comment support from Dawny. Dawny shares her mixed feelings about her new job. Lots of BCs named Jo! Our newest BC, Jo from the UK, asks if Any other UK BCs are still listening. Sue from the UK answers along with many friends old and new including BC Jo, formerly from the UK and now from Thailand. Josephine from last show officially becomes a new BC by posting on the bravery report. Welcome new BC, Jane from Suffolk. Sophie from Scotland also pops in on FB and a quick hello from Stéfanie from Quebec. Thanks for supporting the show via Amazon, Virtual Coffee, reviews, FB likes and gifts. I finally work up the courage to put some ink in the beautiful handmade journal Mary S. made me. Mark shares his experience with trying Meditation.

Hot dry grass and bright blue sky with trees in the background

You can almost see the heat shimmer looking out from the podcast rock.


Close up of Laurie's notes in Mary's handmade journal

Proof I actually used BC Mary S.’s wonderful gift in the way she intended.

New BCs

BCs with UK roots who say Hello to new BC Jo from the UK

On my personal FB page
My real life pal from the UK, Juliette, says Hello via FB
My real life pal Eddie, who is NOT from the UK says Hello via FB
BC Jo from Thailand, whom we met on day 108, originally comes from the UK, but now lives and works in Thailand says hello via FB
BC Sophie from Scotland posts her hello to Jo on FB.
On the Show FB page
Sue from the UK greets Jo on the COD page of FB and here on the blog
New BC Jane from Suffolk says hello on the COD page of FB

Mentioned

Last show and comments

Dawny’s comments of support for Brave Petra and her thoughts about her new job

My Bad Binge episode on Day 20

Stéfanie from Quebec’s hello

My meditation recommendations to Dawny

Insight Timer, the app I use for guided meditation

The Morning Mediation Mark Likes – on youtube (on the Insight App it also has music)

Our Social Media TAG is #CODBCS

The blog post where I show you the journal BC Mary S. made for me.

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Special Guest: Mark ‘The Meditator’ Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

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Ep 0139 – Everything Is a Miracle

Laurie in red head scarf and blue long sleeved shirt at top of trail with bright cloudless sky behind - face in shadow
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I’m smiling because I appreciate the miracle of shade on such a bright and sunny day.

Podcast Recap

I let go of life on autopilot and learn to see the miracles all around. We celebrate a HUGE bravery report moment for BC Petra. Welcome to New BCs Stephanie from West Virginia who reached out on FB and Theresa who posted on Day 9. We get a sample of comments from Mary S., BC Laura R (soon to be S), Dawny and Amy from WI. Thanks again to Amazon shoppers. Big thanks also to Kindred Spirit, Josephine who left a kind review on USA iTunes, and a big, big smooch to BC Mary S. who sent me a heart-touching gift in the mail. I read a snippet of the blog post I wrote about what Mary’s gift meant to me. We meet my friend and new BC JoJo from CA who stopped by the blog to comment.

Sturdy wooden bench under a tree - you can see the tall, waving grass surrounds it.

The famous Next To Top Zen Bench – where I record most of the shows from the mountain.


Pink blossoms on a skinny, low growing cactus along the rocks of the path

Caught these small delicate flowers growing up from a cactus-like plant in rocky dry conditions. This inspired me.

New BCs

BC Theresa who commented on Day 9
BC Stephanie from West Virginia who reached out on Facebook
BC JoJo from CA who commented on the blog post about Mary S.’s gift.

Mentioned

Last show and comments

My meditation recommendations to Dawny

Insight Timer, the app I use for guided meditation

Our Social Media TAG is #CODBCS

Follow Petra on Instagram at PetraDoingPetra

The link to Petra’s bravery report-worthy post

I’m on Instagram as LaurieDreamWeaver

You can like the show on FaceBook at Facebook.com/compulsiveovereatingdiary.com

Link to the Bravery Report page – where you can download your own certificate of episode completion, get a printable bravery report certificate or post your bravery for all BCs to see!

The Blog post where you can see photos of Mary S.’s gift

New BC Theresa’s comment on Day 9

Direct Link to Episode Completion PDF

Day 136 – Where Mark and I talked about our marriage and BC Mary S. commented about it.

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

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Touching Others With Your Heart – Big Smooches Mary

Close up of a hand made note that says be you, BRAVELY
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This lovely hand-made card was just part of an incredible gift sent by BC Mary S. ‘Be You BRAVELY’ could be our motto and sums up beautifully all I’ve learned doing COD. To express ourselves in truth and not hide because of size or other fears. This is true freedom, whatever our body goals may be.

A Special Gift

BC Mary S. asked if there was a way she could send me something. I told her about my PO Box and then went on with my life in my busy, brain racing way.

Then she let me know a package was on the way.

Wow! I love presents, surprises and seeing what BCs create. So a big WIN-WIN all the way around. I was excited to get my hands on Mary’s gift. And in the video below you can watch as I discover what creative BC Mary S. has made.

See Me Open Mary’s Gift

This package was special from top to bottom. I took this video to let Mary see my reaction and it was so fun, I asked if I could share it with you too!

Wow! Oh Wow!

The True Gift

Below you will see photos of the physical gift details, but the TRUE gift was Mary’s time and care. Mary took time to know me, to know what I like, to create this work of art for me to write in – knowing that I write. This gift of knowing me, of hearing me, was overwhelming and kind.
Mary gave me so much more than a cool book to write in. Mary’s gift told me loud and clear that she, to quote the Who’s Rock Opera, Tommy, “Can See Me, Hear Me”. That I, Laurie, am an individual and not just some disembodied voice in the earbuds. That I matter as a person. And it also shared so much of who Mary is with me too. Her creativity, her humor, her heart.

Through Mary’s kindness we learned a little more about one another. And we found partners in caring.

When we as brave companions reach out to one another, we are giving that gift to each other too. Whether it’s a kind comment of support, a joke to brighten our day, a link that other BCs might enjoy, or just a “Hello”, we, as the BC community are giving the true gift of time and attention that shows us that we truly are not alone.

Photos that show the Loving Detail Mary added

Wish - Dream - Blessing - Delight and other affirming words

One of my favorite surprises was that Mary added all of these cool affirmations to the back of the envelope, The gift was so thoughtful throughout.


Hand-made cover with Laurie Written across the front

I’m amazed to hold in my hand a hand-made writing journal with my name and most of the things I love referenced within.


Pink sticky labeled urgent points to an envelope pasted within the journal that contained a card

Just the first of many surprise flaps and messages. This one contained the “be you BRAVELY” card.

Two blue cat stickers with a floating blue heart smile up from the lower corner of one journal page

My love of cats are represented by surprising cat and kitten stickers on some of the pages.

Yellow beach cruiser sticker with school books and butterflies is on the corner of care and free on this journal lower corner.

My love of bike riding is represented many places throughout my special journal

Hand made book binding shown close up with a pattern of bikes and words like looking good and funky cool

Even the hand-made book binding celebrates my love of bikes and funky cool!

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Ep 0138 – Gratitude Day

Laurie in a big straw hat sits under the trees and the sun light cascades down through the leaves.
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It’s a day to contemplate gratitude at the Next to Top Zen Place.

Podcast Recap

I ponder the sacrifices of our service men and women on Memorial Day. BC Rabbit’s comments from last show inspire me to think about letting go of my Racing Morning Mind and talk about how guided meditation has been working for me. Dawny presents a niece-approved round of Foolish Fun. Thank you Amazon shoppers for using the COD links to buy your products to support the show. Greetings to new BC Laura R (soon to be Laura S). My struggles with some aspects of social media and a new hashtag for us to connect – #CODBCs. Sue from the U.K. stops by to comfort me on My Motherless Day blog post. Comments from Dawny who shares a BIG milestone and BC Dave, who goes on the bravery report along with his wife, BC Kathy, for trying something new. Mark and my brave bike plans for next year’s birthday.

Sun shines brightly on the hiking path with foothills in the background. Bright blue skies and wispy clouds.

A spectacular view hiking on Memorial Day. The majesty of nature never fails to bring me some peace and sense of belonging.

Prayer rocks along the trail stacked in a loose pyramid configuration supporting a top rock

Here’s the stack of prayer rocks I built on Memorial Day 2017 to honor my dad and all of the service people who sacrificed to protect our country and our freedom.

Laurie wearing a blue t-shirt with a hand-painted bike on it

Posing in my fav bike themed tee.

Mentioned

Last show and comments

Insight Timer, the app I use for guided meditation

New BC Laura R’s (soon to be Laura S’s) blog “Creating Sparks” And if YOU can figure out SnapChat (unlike me), you can follow Laura as createsparkblog.

I’m on Instagram as LaurieDreamWeaver

You can like the show on FaceBook at Facebook.com/compulsiveovereatingdiary.com

BC Dave’s comment with the link to learn about Christ Barnes the bowler.

About Solvang

Learn about and register for the 2018 Solvang Century (or half or metric)

Ways to send audio to the show for Foolish Fun, Laurie’s Stories etc.

Ways to support the show financially

Credits

Host: Laurie Weaver
Foolish Fun Announcer: Mark Weaver
Foolish Funner: Dawny

Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License

Sounds used in Laurie’s Foolish Fun Intro

  • Slide Whistle sounds
    http://www.freesound.org/people/plingativator/sounds/188873/
  • Background Tune/Beat
    http://www.freesound.org/people/siakitty/sounds/38478/
  • Girl’s Laughter
    http://www.freesound.org/people/choplin/sounds/109759/
  • Phone Ring
    http://www.freesound.org/people/winsx87/sounds/152028/
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