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Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 24, 2015

Status 3-24-15*

Yesterday I did many productive, good things. Then I binged like I haven’t binged since I began this show. In fact, I haven’t binged like I did yesterday in YEARS. This was a whopper, tornado of a robot alien invasion that took my breath away.

Today

I don’t feel good today. Not Physically nor emotionally. I was going to hike and record, but not up to it. May go down to the park and wander there later, and ponder on the podcast rock. And if I DO record, I would LOVE to have some of your voice to put in there. Hello, Foolish Fun, It Will Get better Laurie, or….

Hey, Cheryl called the bravery hotline with HER take on Stéfanie’s vanity question from day 105. If YOU want to be part of that discussion for show 106 too, check out the audio page and send me your thoughts. OR go post your comments about “Is it vanity to want to look good as a weigh loss motivator?” on Day 105.

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

Please feel free to comment on MY statuses or add YOUR OWN thoughts, feelings, challenges, rants and raves on these pages too. That was one of the original purposes of why I posted on FB. I thought BCs might like to share about THEIR days. So if you have thoughts and feelings you’d like to share with the group, go ahead and put them here with your comments.

*Daily statuses are not part of the blog’s email notification. When you enter your email under where it says SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL, you will be notified of regular blog posts and when podcast episodes are released. I didn’t want to clog your inbox with my daily statuses. However, the automatic publicize feature will inform you on my show FB page, my AdventureLaurie twitter account, google+ on its show page, and Tumblr.

PS If you wish to sign up for email notification of blog postings and shows going live (not these status reports) enter your email where it says: “SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL”. This blog subscription widget is located to the right on computers and on some tablets, and below the posts on smart phones and on other types of tablets.

PSS, some BCs have asked me the difference between blog postings and status pages. Blog postings are where I develop a complete topic triggered by my status thoughts. Status thoughts are how my day went, what’s on my agenda, and how my body feels today – and not much editing or thought goes into them. That’s why I don’t clog up your email with them. 🙂

Suspending Body Balance

Long time BCs have heard me post and talk about my body balance number. It was a REALLY useful tool, but I’m suspending it for awhile as I think I have learned from it and want to move on to just mentally processing how I feel.

Feel free to check out earlier status reports to see what I counted and how it worked.

The Bravery Coach

TheBraveryCoach daily tweet is a morning mediation on how I either did, or can incorporate an aspect of bravery into my day. It is cheerful. It is esteem building. Those who want to follow these on Twitter may, by searching for the hashtag #bravery or by seeing my profile:

Daily Bravery Tweets via TheBraveryCoach on Twitter

Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 23, 2015

Status 3-23-15*

Yesterday felt like an odd mix of despair and hope. About food? Naw, fuhgeddaboudit! I was freaking myself out again about voice acting and puzzling my way through why I feel so scared of even practicing at home, when it is something I WANT to do.

I felt better after writing, even though it felt weird to write instead of talk, and decided to practice. Bam. Too much strain still. Rest was better. Still, didn’t want to give up on goals, so searched for some books to maybe help with acting in general and voice animation acting in particular.

Found a few I liked and let myself relax and take in some of the information. (Knowing that some of my procrastination behavior is research vs. action). I made a pact to find some ACTIONABLE info and put it into practice.

While I have good vocal warm-ups from singing, I found a GREAT series of body relaxation and body prep for voice exercises in one book. So I just now recorded these for myself so I can play them from my iPad through Mark’s fancy bluetooth speaker and will try them out.

I think it will help me quite a bit to focus and relax.

I also really focused my practice imagination yesterday on making the line readings fun for the audience. We’ll see how that changes things today. I believe my voice is rested enough for a small rehearsal, but I do need to leave enough for my singing voice lesson today.

Today

As I said, back to singing lessons today after a small break for travel. I think Viki will be pleased as I HAVE practiced and worked on my breathing. Hopefully, soon, I will be able to do my song technically well enough that I can work on the character of it. Then I’ll record a bit for you all and you can see the difference from when I FIRST began learning it around day 100’s bravery day. (The ONLY part of that show I regret is recording my singing when my voice was so wacked up). But bravery it was, so I live with that.

Schedule: Answer comments from yesterday. Partial voice acting warm-up and line read. Vocal rest and loads of water. Then Singing lesson. Then walk in the park or Yoga. (I don’t want to go to the park prior to expose myself to more allergens). Then write Show 106 to possibly record tomorrow on a hike.

Hey, Cheryl called the bravery hotline with HER take on Stéfanie’s vanity question from day 105. If YOU want to be part of that discussion for show 106 too, check out the audio page and send me your thoughts. OR go post your comments about “Is it vanity to want to look good as a weigh loss motivator?” on Day 105.

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

Please feel free to comment on MY statuses or add YOUR OWN thoughts, feelings, challenges, rants and raves on these pages too. That was one of the original purposes of why I posted on FB. I thought BCs might like to share about THEIR days. So if you have thoughts and feelings you’d like to share with the group, go ahead and put them here with your comments.

*Daily statuses are not part of the blog’s email notification. When you enter your email under where it says SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL, you will be notified of regular blog posts and when podcast episodes are released. I didn’t want to clog your inbox with my daily statuses. However, the automatic publicize feature will inform you on my show FB page, my AdventureLaurie twitter account, google+ on its show page, and Tumblr.

PS If you wish to sign up for email notification of blog postings and shows going live (not these status reports) enter your email where it says: “SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL”. This blog subscription widget is located to the right on computers and on some tablets, and below the posts on smart phones and on other types of tablets.

PSS, some BCs have asked me the difference between blog postings and status pages. Blog postings are where I develop a complete topic triggered by my status thoughts. Status thoughts are how my day went, what’s on my agenda, and how my body feels today – and not much editing or thought goes into them. That’s why I don’t clog up your email with them. 🙂

Suspending Body Balance

Long time BCs have heard me post and talk about my body balance number. It was a REALLY useful tool, but I’m suspending it for awhile as I think I have learned from it and want to move on to just mentally processing how I feel.

Feel free to check out earlier status reports to see what I counted and how it worked.

The Bravery Coach

TheBraveryCoach daily tweet is a morning mediation on how I either did, or can incorporate an aspect of bravery into my day. It is cheerful. It is esteem building. Those who want to follow these on Twitter may, by searching for the hashtag #bravery or by seeing my profile:

Daily Bravery Tweets via TheBraveryCoach on Twitter

Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 21, 2015

Status 3-21-15*

Restful day. I slept In BIG TIME for me, until after 9:00 AM! My Voice Animation Class is cancelled today due to David, my coach and teacher, will be away recording a motion capture part for a video game he was cast in. That’s where he wears a body suit with the motion sensors on his body and face and the character will somewhat look like him and use his actions in the game as well as his voice reads. Pretty cool, no?

For me, it lets me off the hook for…

Still Book Club Reading

Book Club tonight, and I am about 77% done according to my trusty Kindle. So reading is priority one as soon as I’m done replying to comments.

Eating Lessons

Yesterday I felt GREAT on our ride. Here’s a video from Instagram.

Then I came home, still not hungry, and made an AWESOME chicken, broccoli and brown rice dish. Enjoyed that – noticed my portion was bigger than usual. (Not surprising, we’d done a pretty good ride and this was late in the day for my lunch).

Included small amount of ice-cream for dessert. Felt better than fine!

Started a soup recipe in the slow cooker I wanted to try and went off to practice singing and voice.

Noticed, singing was more difficult, and by the time I got to voice acting practice, I was starting to feel discomfort in my throat and chords. Dang! (stronger word came to mind)

Had to can voice acting practice and rest my voice. I had done the equivalent to overuse injury when exercising. I’d thought I’d been careful, but had somehow strained. May have been trying different voices out, even though I was warmed up, the character does martial arts and so has some scream type lines in there. THEN I realize the broth I had started my soup with, was probably bad from the get go. Tip: If food SMELLS off, don’t eat it! My soup, and all of the time and money I’d put into it, had to be tossed.

Next thing I know, Nachos and margaritas sound good for dinner. Actually, by this time, probably time for dinner, and not a bad choice except….

Margaritas can lead to bad eating judgement for me. Result? A chocolate day like I hadn’t had for many months.

Sigh. Can’t even say it was Robot Aliens. It was me consciously soothing anger at self with chocolate. Perfect! I am mean and nice all at once. Chocolate gives you a mood boost, over ating of chocolate lets you be super pissed later.

Lesson:

Knowledge doesn’t mean you change all at once. It just gives you a shot at considering and changing in a future moment.

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

Please feel free to comment on MY statuses or add YOUR OWN thoughts, feelings, challenges, rants and raves on these pages too. That was one of the original purposes of why I posted on FB. I thought BCs might like to share about THEIR days. So if you have thoughts and feelings you’d like to share with the group, go ahead and put them here with your comments.

*Daily statuses are not part of the blog’s email notification. When you enter your email under where it says SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL, you will be notified of regular blog posts and when podcast episodes are released. I didn’t want to clog your inbox with my daily statuses. However, the automatic publicize feature will inform you on my show FB page, my AdventureLaurie twitter account, google+ on its show page, and Tumblr.

PS If you wish to sign up for email notification of blog postings and shows going live (not these status reports) enter your email where it says: “SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL”. This blog subscription widget is located to the right on computers and on some tablets, and below the posts on smart phones and on other types of tablets.

PSS, some BCs have asked me the difference between blog postings and status pages. Blog postings are where I develop a complete topic triggered by my status thoughts. Status thoughts are how my day went, what’s on my agenda, and how my body feels today – and not much editing or thought goes into them. That’s why I don’t clog up your email with them. 🙂

Suspending Body Balance

Long time BCs have heard me post and talk about my body balance number. It was a REALLY useful tool, but I’m suspending it for awhile as I think I have learned from it and want to move on to just mentally processing how I feel.

Feel free to check out earlier status reports to see what I counted and how it worked.

The Bravery Coach

TheBraveryCoach daily tweet is a morning mediation on how I either did, or can incorporate an aspect of bravery into my day. It is cheerful. It is esteem building. Those who want to follow these on Twitter may, by searching for the hashtag #bravery or by seeing my profile:

Daily Bravery Tweets via TheBraveryCoach on Twitter

Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary

March 18, 2015

Status 3-18-15*

Morning BC’s here are a few items that LOOM large in yesterday’s activity.

1.Happy Green Beer Day – er St. Paddy’s Day

Had a fun start to my morning Jib Jabbing Around with Stéfanie from Quebec, Dawny, Mark, and Tiger the Cat.

2.Book Club Reading

As usual, I put off starting my book club reading until the last minute. Why you ask? Aren’t the books any good? We have a mixed bag of results by our club choices, but that is our point – to experience reading adventures that we would not otherwise have. It is really cool to share reading and then to discuss it. Nope. My problem is that reading is VERY HARD for me since my bike accident and it is more of a chore than a pleasure. That being said, this book is AWESOME and I am enjoying it and kicking myself that I didn’t start it earlier so I could have ‘savored’ it instead of ‘binge reading’ in order to get it read by Saturday’s meeting. There must be some perfectionistic or procrastinator’s lesson there, but no time to ponder, got to get back to reading.

3. My ‘Go To’ Exercise Music

I still have an iPod stocked with my tunes and I listen on the way up the mountain or when I ride on a dedicated bike path removed from traffic. One of my best pleasures is posting to Sophie from Scotland on IG what I’m #RockingOutTo. Let me be clear, I am 99% old school and barely know the names of any bands or musicians post 1979 unless they’ve been in a relationship or scandal that puts their name into the news. BUT I do have an extensive collection of tunes based in my time capsule sensabilities. I tell Sophie and she tells me what SHE’s listening to. Cool! That way I know to listen to some new music and she gets the chance to explore my, to quote The Who, g..g..g..generation.

This is my favorite exercise companion music. One of my favorite bands, Styx, doing covers of many of my OTHER favorite bands. Can’t lose! Love this, Give it a listen, it has a nice beat for walking and riding.

What does the day teach us?

I was happy to go riding with Mark on the river and get some gentle exercise, though the HEAT is still with us. We slogged our way on the path, met an amazing cancer survivor who shared his story with us and reminded Mark and me that we are oh, so lucky to be well and have the time to ride on a beautiful day – even if it WAS darn hot.

Then after I replied to a few comments here and answered emails, I quit putting off my task and I focused on READING. Yep reading. I got 1/3 of the way through All the Light We Cannot See: A Novel by Anthony Doerr. It’s an interesting parallel story about a blind French girl and a German boy whose paths collide in occupied France as both try to survive the devastation of World War II. Since my heritage is German and my dad, US born, served in WW II this is both personal and interesting. If you love character driven books and history, I highly recommend it.

Today

Reading. Then more work on my animation voice assignments. I realize I need to get back to more focus, more consistent practice and quit dicking around so much. I LOVE voice acting, I BELIEVE I can develop the skill to audition commercially, and it is TIME to invest my own time in myself. Hmmm, another cool lesson there for the show maybe.

Oh well, off to read and practice then this evening Mark and I go off to writing group for more writing adventures.

Have a great day BCs!

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

Please feel free to comment on MY statuses or add YOUR OWN thoughts, feelings, challenges, rants and raves on these pages too. That was one of the original purposes of why I posted on FB. I thought BCs might like to share about THEIR days. So if you have thoughts and feelings you’d like to share with the group, go ahead and put them here with your comments.

*Daily statuses are not part of the blog’s email notification. When you enter your email under where it says SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL, you will be notified of regular blog posts and when podcast episodes are released. I didn’t want to clog your inbox with my daily statuses. However, the automatic publicize feature will inform you on my show FB page, my AdventureLaurie twitter account, google+ on its show page, and Tumblr.

PS If you wish to sign up for email notification of blog postings and shows going live (not these status reports) enter your email where it says: “SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL”. This blog subscription widget is located to the right on computers and on some tablets, and below the posts on smart phones and on other types of tablets.

PSS, some BCs have asked me the difference between blog postings and status pages. Blog postings are where I develop a complete topic triggered by my status thoughts. Status thoughts are how my day went, what’s on my agenda, and how my body feels today – and not much editing or thought goes into them. That’s why I don’t clog up your email with them. 🙂

Body Balance


BB (Body Balance) number: 8.
Sleep: 6 hours undivided.
Tummy/Gut: Balanced.
Hungry: 3 hours after waking. Going to make breakfast now.
Energy: High Moderate.
Mood: Focused and full of self-belief

BB is my personal criteria, and I don’t think too hard about it. I ask myself at the keyboard, what is my BB? A number between 1-10, including halves, pops into my head. I write it in my post Then I figure out why it is higher or lower and gently make note.

If you are interested these are my measures.

  1. Sleep. Quality and Amount.
  2. Tummy/Gut – If I ate what my body asked for, usually above and below the belly button feel balanced. Ate too much, below the belly button feels more full. Ate too little, the reverse.
  3. Am I hungry within 1 hour of waking? I have found that I feel best if I am hungry within 1 hour of waking. This tends to make my eating day even and not heavy on food in the evening. But I don’t eat if not hungry unless I’m about to ride or hike. I’ve learned I need to fuel these morning activities, or I’ll bonk.
  4. What is my energy level? Subjective, but telling.
  5. A quick look at my mood.

The Bravery Coach

TheBraveryCoach daily tweet is a morning mediation on how I either did, or can incorporate an aspect of bravery into my day. It is cheerful. It is esteem building. Those who want to follow these on Twitter may, by searching for the hashtag #bravery or by seeing my profile:

Daily Bravery Tweets via TheBraveryCoach on Twitter

3-14-15

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Status 3-14-15*

Yesterday I threw caution to the wind and walked around the park and recorded my thoughts on whether or not to go ahead and track my calories this week. Many reasons, which if you REALLY want to know, you should give yesterday’s episode a listen.
Bottom line I’m wanting to know what I’m eating because:

  1. I want to track down the nutritional culprit for my weird digestive attacks
  2. I do not feel I am emotionally overeating, but my body is still not comfortable. I want to check in with the actual amounts I AM eating.

Number 1 is fine with me. Doesn’t cause any anxiety. Number 2 is the slippery slope. Even though I am NOT changing at all what I eat, just tracking it — it STILL feels very weird to enter food into a diary again after all of this time. I’m going to keep going this week however, as I discussed with my therapist in order to examine these feelings and to see if I get any valuable insights.

Sigh.

I am happy that I have come so far emotionally and am astounded that even the THOUGHT of tracking didn’t send me racing for the chips. But so far, no big reaction. Of course, it’s only been one day. Could be honeymoon. Could be I have actually developed the ability to track without berating myself for going over a “set calorie limit”. Too early to tell.

The weirdest thing, is how I feel I’m betraying my IE listeners with this possible “diet mentality” just as I worried about betraying my “I want to lose weight” listeners when I gave up dieting. My bravery moment today is realizing that my story is unique and must, by definition, flow where it does me the most good. Listeners who just like to hear my thoughts on the compulsive eating journey will not be shook. Those who are just need to do what’s best for themselves.

Please stand by while I give myself a commercial announcement:
Laurie, pay attention dear, YOU ARE NOT THE ANSWER! YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE!

Ah grasshopper Laurie, you are doing so well. You are listening to your heart and exploring your needs. You invite others to peek inside your world as you go, but are starting to realize the separation between them and you. You can be companions without being the same. In fact, no BC is exactly the same as you or any other BC.

This show may go on for YEARS as I can see that my internal thoughts will be winding like a snake around the hiking trails. Resting in the sun, burrowing under rocks and slithering here and there in exploration. I will never be done. I will never have “THE ANSWER”.

Today

Working on my Voice Acting monolog for animation class this afternoon. Tough one for me today, but I’m pleased that David thinks I’m up for the challenge. Also, slowly, SLOWLY, getting the house back into shape. May do some yoga as a change. Haven’t in some time. Hope your day is peaceful or exciting as you would like.

xoxoxoxoxo

How about you?

Please feel free to comment on MY statuses or add YOUR OWN thoughts, feelings, challenges, rants and raves on these pages too. That was one of the original purposes of why I posted on FB. I thought BCs might like to share about THEIR days. So if you have thoughts and feelings you’d like to share with the group, go ahead and put them here with your comments.

*Daily statuses are not part of the blog’s email notification. When you enter your email under where it says SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL, you will be notified of regular blog posts and when podcast episodes are released. I didn’t want to clog your inbox with my daily statuses. However, the automatic publicize feature will inform you on my show FB page, my AdventureLaurie twitter account, google+ on its show page, and Tumblr.

PS If you wish to sign up for email notification of blog postings and shows going live (not these status reports) enter your email where it says: “SUBSCRIBE TO POSTS VIA EMAIL”. This blog subscription widget is located to the right on computers and on some tablets, and below the posts on smart phones and on other types of tablets.

PSS, some BCs have asked me the difference between blog postings and status pages. Blog postings are where I develop a complete topic triggered by my status thoughts. Status thoughts are how my day went, what’s on my agenda, and how my body feels today – and not much editing or thought goes into them. That’s why I don’t clog up your email with them. 🙂

Body Balance


BB (Body Balance) number: 8.
Sleep: 7 hours divided.
Tummy/Gut: Balances.
Hungry: 1 hour after waking. Regular breakfast satisfied.
Energy: Moderate.
Mood: Anxious for class.

BB is my personal criteria, and I don’t think too hard about it. I ask myself at the keyboard, what is my BB? A number between 1-10, including halves, pops into my head. I write it in my post Then I figure out why it is higher or lower and gently make note.

If you are interested these are my measures.

  1. Sleep. Quality and Amount.
  2. Tummy/Gut – If I ate what my body asked for, usually above and below the belly button feel balanced. Ate too much, below the belly button feels more full. Ate too little, the reverse.
  3. Am I hungry within 1 hour of waking? I have found that I feel best if I am hungry within 1 hour of waking. This tends to make my eating day even and not heavy on food in the evening. But I don’t eat if not hungry unless I’m about to ride or hike. I’ve learned I need to fuel these morning activities, or I’ll bonk.
  4. What is my energy level? Subjective, but telling.
  5. A quick look at my mood.

The Bravery Coach

TheBraveryCoach daily tweet is a morning mediation on how I either did, or can incorporate an aspect of bravery into my day. It is cheerful. It is esteem building. Those who want to follow these on Twitter may, by searching for the hashtag #bravery or by seeing my profile:

Daily Bravery Tweets via TheBraveryCoach on Twitter

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