1. Dawny March 25, 2015 at 6:35 pm

   I eagerly anticipate hearing this episode as I do every episode. I love taking my Wog-a-bout s with you friend.

   Sending you great big cyber hugs today gal friend!!!!! Sounds like you need them.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorMarch 25, 2015 at 6:57 pm

      Thanks! This isn’t the most fun I’ve ever had podcasting, but it did help me to work it through. I do hope you BCs won’t be too drug down by its ranting and gloomy tenor. xoxoxoxox Fast forward if it’s a pain. You and Cheryl made Foolish Fun history!

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      1. dawny March 26, 2015 at 6:49 am

         LOVED the episode Laurie..!! I truly hope that the day is near where you will stop apologizing for being YOU, and for sharing yourself!!! =-) Hugs friend..
         This show is YOUR show, and it’s intent and purpose is/was for you to be able to share your life journey ALL of it, those of us embarking in/on/with the journey are fully aware of LIFE and how it goes, so friend.. Dearest friend, NO need to apologize for yourself, for your thoughts, for your feelings!!
         Life is NOT all ALWAYS rainbows and butterflies, and because this is a podcast of your life and experiences, and ours when you include them, there’s no apology needed

         Im thankful your so open willing and honest =-)

         AND for the record.. you have NOT failed anyone.. NOT even YOU as you felt via your descriptive in the podcast episode.. Failure would be giving up and letting the alien win, to which you DO NOT do, you KEEP ON KEEPING on working thru it and finding by digging what’s rooting it etc.. your continuing to learn and grow.. Im proud of you =-)

         I too hate how we find something that’s to be fun, but because of our addictive compulsive personalities, we become obsessed, and it becomes something other than what it was intended to be, or started out as *sigh* dang personality quirks anyway.. sheesh.. glad that we all have our own tho.. giggle giggle keeps the world going around right? hee hee.

         SUPER gal pal e-hugs lady! you got this.. crows; aliens, barking dogs and all =-) I truly LOVE it

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         1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorMarch 26, 2015 at 10:26 am

            Dawny you are a GENIUS!

            I too hate how we find something that’s to be fun, but because of our addictive compulsive personalities, we become obsessed, and it becomes something other than what it was intended to be

            I had not recognized until you wrote this that my ‘progression’ problem is based in perfectionism! When I begin, I don’t KNOW what I’m supposed to know, so I allow myself to experience whatever the thing is. THEN as I learn ‘the rules’ my obsessive self fires up to HIGH ALERT to PERFECTLY do the rules, and anything less means I give up! Of course, I can’t be perfect at the rules. I freak and get MORE in my head, trying to OBEY the rules (sound like dieting and giving up to bingeing?)

            This is SUCH a wonderfully freeing insight Dawny, I can’t tell you. I need to tackle acting like intuitive eating. I need to feel my way. It is ok to know and practice the technical parts, but when it comes to performing for class, I need to let go of the RULES and just BE however I will be.

            I bet this will help. Thanks SO much as I really want to continue with voice acting and I BELIEVE I have what it takes to become proficient at it. And now, I feel I have a chance again, even though it won’t be easy (as my compulsive brain loves to torture me). I will have to breathe through this one. Hugs. Off to therapy!

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            1. Dawny March 26, 2015 at 5:50 pm

               YAY soooo glad and PROUD to be able to ‘give back’ a thought to you!! you’ve given me so many =-)

               you’ve got this friend.. we got this friends.. wooohoo
            2. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorMarch 27, 2015 at 7:38 am

               xoxoxoxox
2. Cheryl March 26, 2015 at 10:09 am

   You really are in a pickle about the voice lessons, it’s easy to tell. I waited for years to take piano lessons, and they weren’t cheap. We really didn’t have the money. But after all that waiting I just decided I owed it to myself to see if I could go the distance, irregardless of how much it cost. As I’ve said before, I really bombed those lessons. Crossed that off my bucket list after giving it a shot for nearly two years. But I think it was important for me to keep at it until I had the satisfaction of knowing whether I could or couldn’t learn to play. Maybe it’s the same for you with the voice acting lessons?

   Also wanted to comment quickly that I LOVED what “Proactive” Pat had to say. There is a certain fearlessness that can creep in when we’re participating someone in a group. Maybe it’s just herd mentality. Who knows… But I know I’ve made a lot of forward movement since you’ve been doing this podcast. Thanks for that insight, Pat.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorMarch 26, 2015 at 10:32 am

      I resonated with what Patt had to say too.

      I LOVED what “Proactive” Pat had to say. There is a certain fearlessness that can creep in when we’re participating someone in a group. Maybe it’s just herd mentality. Who knows… But I know I’ve made a lot of forward movement since you’ve been doing this podcast. Thanks for that insight, Pat.

      I think isolation is one of the painful hallmarks of eating issues (or other compulsive issues) and our supportive group dynamic is key to unlocking that fear of being ourselves. Once we can be ourselves SOMEWHERE, it is easier to be ourselves out in the world.

      I think Dawny nailed my voice acting problem and I feel so much better! I do have what it takes, I just didn’t know how to get over my usual progression into perceived failure and abandonment. I can be objective, and I see, that if I allow myself, I have all of the tools needed (and a GREAT location) for pursuing voice atcting. AND I really do love it. So time to follow the joy, not the perfection. xoxoxoxox

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3. Carol March 27, 2015 at 6:22 am

   Hang in there Laurie! And I agree with the others, don’t apologize. This is your show and I think we all can relate and that’s what makes it so helpful to listen to. Your struggles are also our struggles and your show makes you the bravest of all. Tomorrow is a new day! Thanks for sharing this episode. I completely understand where you are coming from.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorMarch 27, 2015 at 7:46 am

      Thanks Carol! I’m feeling better and have learned what was under all of that. So now, it’s just going to take time for the physical discomforts to move along and for me to get back to my normal hunger cues. It is disconcerting to feel so full and hungry at once! I’m glad the episode was helpful, believe me, I would have preferred to just sweep it under the rug and wait until I felt better to record. But since other BCs have similar experiences, I hoped that at minimum, it would make them feel less alone and less crazy. Your support means a lot to me and I really appreciate it. Hugs! xoxoxoxox

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4. Jo July 12, 2017 at 5:06 am

   OMG I heard it in your voice, the disappointment and frustration of the binge. The over analysis of why and wherefore, and struggling to recover without pulling back on the boots of restriction.
   I am struggling with overeating at the moment, but I am going through some personal and health challenges so I am cutting myself some slack until next week.
   The 5:2 diet worked well for me and I will probably go back to that and try to dismiss my binges – whereas today I am just letting the overeating happen with no guilt or repercussions
   I am compulsive in so many areas of my life and recent events have left me incapable where I am normally so capable and therefore I understand my overeating demands at the moment. I hope you are still doing well Laurie and being kind to yourself
   Take care

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5. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJuly 12, 2017 at 10:04 am

   Thank you Jo. When I started the show I promised raw and real, and though it is tough to show my negative self, this is an example of it. It is shocking, no? But what’s encouraging for me, is that those levels of binges were my norm for most of my life. Restrict like crazy, HUGE blow-out, hate myself more for ‘lack of control’, more restriction to “fix and punish”. repeat repeat repeat. I literally gave my life over to eating, dieting and body issues. I squeezed out people, creativity, even house work. Exercise was more important than almost anything.. Eating the ‘right thing’ more important than social events etc. Of course, I didn’t realize this. This pattern felt normal. Part of my DNA and my identity. Most of the show was, and still is in the reboot, me learning to not only understand these forces, but to have compassion for myself. A very hard task for a perfectionist. Today, while I’m very peaceful around food, I realize that I am falling into some of my pattern in Voice Acting. And perfection does not work there. One must let go and learn trust. So voice acting is another opportunity for me to learn and to forgive. I guess that might be my purpose in life. Learn stuff and forgive. Thanks for your support, it means the world that people who experience the ‘non-perfection’ that is my truth, still root for me, hang with me, and hold me in their affection. xoxoxoxo PS, I’m sorry to heat that you are having some challenges now. I agree that losing the feeling of capability is a huge trigger. Whatever plan you choose for your eating, I wish you well and know that you are an awesome loving soul who cared enough to reach out. xoxoxoxox

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