1. dawny June 9, 2015 at 7:06 am

   YAAAY another AWESOME episode to keep me excited for some cardio so I have a chance to listen! thanks! ive been struggling with active motivation, although my body has really appreciated not all the impact of wogging myself into the ground, I find by the time im off work, I no longer have desire for working-out, im a morning girl.. I gotta figure this out,

   but today…. i have motivation, i wanna pod-cast listen.. hee hee

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 9, 2015 at 9:31 am

      Hugs Dawny! I’m glad you excited to listen to this one. It was challenging to make, but I loved many parts of it. AND I never, ever, would have hiked in that dang heat if I didn’t want to record so badly. So the show motivated me too! I know you will figure it out. I am such an early bird, that afternoon and evening exercise is at least twice as hard for me energy-wise. But I enjoy it if it is with someone else – or if I want to really listen to a podcast too! (I have my favorites all about voice acting or acting or other topics).

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2. Fionna June 10, 2015 at 10:19 am

   Hi Laurie and BC’s! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you Laurie, for the fabulous feature! It’s so wonderful to have you as a fan of my music 😀

   I just wrote a blog post about recording my first album! Check it out (and listen to a sample of the first track!): http://fionnasings.blogspot.com/2015/06/someday-is-today.html

   Great episode as always. Loved it when Mark shared his favorite poem, and it was so brave of him to talk about his dyslexia. I hope to hear more of him on the show. I also wanted to take a second to tell you how much I LOVE the sound bites you insert into each episode: the applause you sometimes plug in and intros before each segment are SO fun to listen to! Also, I always love hearing you sing on the show. Can’t wait for the next episode!

   Hugs,

   Fionna

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 11, 2015 at 9:59 am

      Hi Fionna and congrats for stepping into your dream! It’s so exciting. I loved your blog post too and I’m looking forward to your album. Mark was touched by your comments and says you are a good songwriter (high praise from him). I’m glad you like my fun with audio, it’s stuff like that that makes it more fun for me to do the editing. After so many episodes, I am TIRED, TIRED, TIRED of my own voice. Another reason I’m grateful you allowed me to share your song.

      Hugs right back atcha!

      xoxoxoxoxo

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3. Dave June 14, 2015 at 11:35 am

   Hi Laurie, Mark and BCs,

   It has taken a while but I think I have recovered from my battle with the MoaARs.

   I shared the post I left on episode 115 with my therapist and he gave me an assignment that triggered another attack of the MoaARs,—-BTW Laurie, I am grateful for your concern about the pain the concept within the pod cast caused. Please understand I don’t hold it against you or the podcast, I expect my recovery/therapy to trigger those painful moments in my history that lead me down this path. I know you Laurie and the BC would do anything malicious to hurt anyone and I cherish your friendships and support.

   My therapist wants me to find a friend, specifically a male friend who I could develop a relationship of trust to the point where I could share my deepest darkest secrets, so I can finally combine the two Daves that live in my head.

   Many of us with struggles have one or more personalities that live in out heads, the one we let the world see and the one we hide from the world. I’m not talking about schizophrenia, nor bipolar disorder not even multiple personality disorder. I just talking about the two that do the most active battling for control within us. There are things in me besides the fat compulsive over-eater, that cause me shame and guilt, but very few people in the world know about them, and those issues affect how I act around people I have not learned to trust yet. So I use the mask to hide the true me and as long as I can not be the real me, I will not succeed over the alien robots nor truly be free and succeed in life. So my therapist wants me to work to develop friendships to share with.

   I have to love myself before I can truly love others enough to trust them and because of this podcast and the BCs I’m moving in the right direction.

   Because of the BCs I’m learning to let go.

   Changing topics.
   Mark I really enjoyed your reading of the poem and am grateful that you shared why it meant so much to you.

   Dave

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 15, 2015 at 8:11 am

      Hi Dave, you write

      BTW Laurie, I am grateful for your concern about the pain the concept within the pod cast caused. Please understand I don’t hold it against you or the podcast, I expect my recovery/therapy to trigger those painful moments in my history that lead me down this path. I know you Laurie and the BC would do anything malicious to hurt anyone and I cherish your friendships and support.

      Thanks for that, no worries on my account. I don’t ever take BCs reactions personally – unless they are directed toward me personally. We all have triggers my dear, Dave. And we never know what they may be. It sounds like you are making AWESOME progress in therapy, and I love the guy friend idea. I bet that is bravery report material for you, and I’m excited for you!

      Mark was glad to read you liked the poem. He says it’s the only one that means so much, so pretty sure that was his one and only poem reading.

      oxoxoxoxo

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      1. Dave June 15, 2015 at 12:19 pm

         If Mark would be willing to share, what are his hobbies while supporting you?

         I know what Mark means about having one meaningful poem mine is:
         The Red Wheelbarrow
         William Carlos Williams, 1883 – 1963
         so much depends
         upon
         a red wheel
         barrow
         glazed with rain
         water
         beside the white
         chickens.

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         1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 17, 2015 at 8:40 am

            Thanks for sharing YOUR fav poem Dave. Mark did a small interview with me to answer your question after recording the announcer bit for our new feature, the BC Bravery Sports Report yesterday. I hope it will be fun to hear your answer directly from him! Hugs xoxoxoxo

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4. Dave June 14, 2015 at 11:41 am

   I forgot to leave this on my previous post.

   I have often struggled to get out of bed in the morning, not because I’m tired, but because I’m not looking forward to dealing with the consequences of some of the poor decisions I have made in life that still now haunt me.

   I heard Alen Standish mention that he starts his day with a mental list of gratitude, so as I get out of bed and start my day, I focus on mentally listing the things I’m grateful for. Now some of these are small things like, I’m grateful for the change in weather that has cooled things down, some are huge like I’m grateful that I’m alive and have the chance to change the direction of my life. I work at not repeating the same things every day. This never fails to improve my mood.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 15, 2015 at 8:14 am

      Wow, that’s a great idea! I do something similar, only at night to help me fall asleep and not have stress dreams. I feel pretty great in the mornings, but I think that is also a function of my natural energy cycle. But whenever and wherever we think of gratitude, it can’t but help our mood. Trouble is, I’ve found, that when we are sunk in depression or MOST NEED the lift of gratitude, it’s most hard to do. So making a habit in the better days is an awesome idea to carry us through the down days. xoxoxoxox

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5. Stéfanie June 15, 2015 at 5:53 am

   Dear Dave, thank you for your openeness.
   Dear Charm, your words are deeply thought provoking.
   Dear Fionna, just. Wow. Beautidul song.
   Dear Dawny, congrats on your half marathon.
   Dear Mark, loved your reading of the IF poem.
   Dear Amy, I feel you. My ME summer starts today too.
   Dear Laurie, your podcast IS the best podcast ever.
   Stéfanie 🙂 xx

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 15, 2015 at 8:15 am

      Dear Stéfanie it is the BEST surprise to wake up to see you here! Happy summer. ::::smooch::::
      oxoxoxoxo

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   2. Dave June 15, 2015 at 12:12 pm

      Love hearing from you Stéfanie, back in April I dove in with both feet to therapy and recovery with a 12 step program, I bared my soul to my therapist on the first visit, I bared my soul to my wife, I bared my soul to my 12 step sponsor, and my bishop. I learned from these podcast that my shame and guilt caused from years of hiding my issues were the trigger for my poor choices and so in an attempt to get it all out I have chosen to be open. I have come to trust and feel very safe around Laurie and the BC’s and find that being open, while difficult is very liberating.

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