1. Dawny August 26, 2015 at 7:59 am

   Oh Em GEEEEE! Oh me oh my,
   you NEVER NEVER fail to represent!! wahooooooooo go team!!!!!!

   LOVE this episode, I did a double… er. uhm okay, TRIPLE take when I downloaded the episode, and saw the duration of it! wawhoooop! =-) it was TRULY TRULY enjoyable,

   I love being able to live vicariously thru EVERYONE’s ability to say good-bye and terms of endearment, in-case you never yet figured it out, I DON’T do good-byes well, and shut down/off instead of dealing with it =-( explains the sudden MIA….

   I really liked this episode, and the readings, feelings, emotions, and loveliness,

   thanks for everything, and to everyone, and I eagerly anticipate future updates, and correspondences.. wahoooo team BC’s forever and always

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorAugust 26, 2015 at 8:41 am

      OMG!!! How the HECK did you listen to that whole dang thing before 8:00 am in the morning? I just published last night. Wow! Well it’s long enough you can probably listen a few times and discover new things. Great to see you back in action posty 😉 And I TOTALLY get what you mean about disappearing to deal. I’m a ghosty myself and am trying to work that through. Hence the BIG notice to the BCs and a long good-bye vs. a “F” it, I’m done disappearing act (most podcasts kinda fade away like that). Plus I really did have fun with the stories and that kind of thing, so I might dabble a bit more once my demo is up and running. Bonus episodes will come. Might have to rename the series from day 121+ to Creative Online Diary xoxoxoxoxoxox

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      1. dawny August 26, 2015 at 5:57 pm

         i like that idea… creative on-line diary =-)

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         1. Dave Glowen August 31, 2015 at 11:46 am

            I agree with dawny, any thing to keep you casting. loves

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            1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorSeptember 1, 2015 at 7:46 am

               Ahhh, Thanks Dave! And thanks again too for letting me have such fun with your RA radio play. David did the voice edit, I did the music and sound edit, then David did a final. It was awesome to collaborate all the way around, and terribly exciting. Yep, might like to ride that train a bit more. Right now, I’m dealing with some health things, annoying vs. serious, and trying to get my demo back on track. But I’m still around, will write something in a day or two, and I’ll do a bonus show once I have something to say, or some project to present. xoxoxoxo
2. Fionna August 28, 2015 at 6:25 am

   Laurie, brava! Such a fabulous finale 😄. I am so impressed with how your singing voice has progressed, by the way! You have a steady, clear tone, and you sound much more confident when you sing. When I messaged you that day way back when, it really was quite a leap for me. I struggle all the time with my low self esteem, so before I pressed “send” on that message of encouragement, I had to shoo away Mr. Negativity, who was telling me “she doesn’t care what you think!” Encouraging you has been somewhat of a healing process for me. Take care, Laurie, and I’ll keep in touch.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorAugust 29, 2015 at 5:56 am

      Thanks so much Fionna! I’m so glad you enjoyed this looooooong, loooooooog, extravaganza! And thanks too for your wonderful song. I’m still amazed at how perfectly you captured the moment for me. And don’t let me leave without thanking you again for your nice words about my singing. Your story about being afraid to encourage is really powerful. How many times in my life, have I held back for the very same reason? Now, I try to say my positive thoughts – because not only does it generally bring a smile to the other person, but like you say, it is healing for me. I think, I was very prone to slipping into the negative, and this is one way for me to keep my focus on the positive. Well, my dear, I am living proof of the good that one small action may make. I am so glad I learned to sing finally. And I’m very happy you hear improvement. Honestly, that is still the toughest for me, to let others hear me sing. But I am getting to the place of feeling confident enough that I will at least hit most of the notes, that I do sing the Star Spangled Banner at ball games and happy birthday with everyone else at a party now. And, just like body image improvement, I’m learning to not care how perfect my singing is in those instances. Hmmm, I had a new wrinkle to social anxiety, I had singing anxiety! And now, with your help, I do not. That is super cool! Hugs, and I’m glad you’ll stay in touch, there’s always a hike or walk down here with your name on it. xoxoxoxox

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3. Dave Glowen August 31, 2015 at 11:49 am

   Wow that is awesome, we kindly demand an Encore!!! Encore!!!

   Seriously that was a wonderful listen, we are so grateful to all who participated, once a BC always a BC. Grateful we are not alone in this battle.

   It will take me several more listens to process all the emotions…

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorSeptember 1, 2015 at 7:48 am

      xoxoxox – I doubt I have the stamina for an encore, but thanks for the support! That show was a HUGE project – made day 100 look like a walk in the park, but I’m very happy and proud with how it turned out. You have it right, show or no show, we remain BCs forever!

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      1. Kathy June 15, 2016 at 7:40 pm

         Laurie

         Sad to read you have stopped doing podcast!
         Such an inspiration; I know you’re going to shine with your new horizons xxx
         Love & best,
         Kathy

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         1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJune 15, 2016 at 8:25 pm

            Hi Kathy, thanks so much for stopping by and for your encouragement! I still do update bonus shows every month or so with COD and am also having fun with my newest show, Stories and Voice. I’d love it if you would give it a listen and let me know what you think. Big hugs and thanks again, always love to hear from BCs. oxoxoxoxox

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4. Suz September 1, 2015 at 8:08 am

   Awww nobody has ever called me “beloved” before in my life! So thanks for that.
   Such a wonderful episode full of sharing and talent. *sniff* I don’t want it to end. I feel like Amy…you’re moving on and I’m still kinda stuck. I always feel like I’m left behind and never figure things out.
   I feel like the cheerio that bounces off the edge of the cereal bowl and falls on the floor and skitters under the fridge, where it just sits gathering dust and never fulfills its intended purpose.
   It does sound more and more though like you’re focusing on what you really want to DO instead of what you’d like to weigh or look like. So that’s positive. Your focus has naturally shifted away from CO. Right now I’m reading “Brain Over Binge” and she talks about not focusing attention on your eating disorders, because that just reinforces the neural pathways and strengthens the pattern. Rather, just be aware of it…not the same thing as giving it attention, and observe neutrally (just like in mindful eating) and that will weaken the pathway (or so she says!). She said she still had urges to binge, but that her new perspective that her “lower” or “animal” brain was conditioned to binge, and her prefrontal cortex or “higher” brain had the choice to act on the urge or not. I don’t know how simply framing the thought like that could lessen a powerful binge urge, but I’m still reading that part. I just liked the part where she said when the urge would arise, she was able to view it objectively as just “neurological junk.” I think we all probably have a lot of neurological junk.
   I’ve been out of work too much lately with chronic headaches, depression, and fatigue. And when I say fatigue, I mean I can sleep 17-18 hours in a row. I’m just wiped out. I’m starting to realize that my depression is a big part of what has held me back in life. It has kept this cheerio under the fridge.
   I was listening to a TED talk the other day (love those) about some experiment in deep brain stimulation with electricity. (I think that was it). They tried it on extremely depressed people…stimulated certain areas of the brain, and it said that within about 10 to 15 seconds (!!!!) they were feeling better. Lighter. Like a burden had been lifted. And here’s where I figured out that the opposite of depression is not happiness, it’s motivation. These test subjects didn’t suddenly say “I feel happy.” They said “I feel like DOING something.” I know those couple days that Abilify was working, I felt like doing things too. I had the energy. The body pains weren’t so intense. I felt motivated. I wanted to make plans. I could see things happening in my mind, I could see potential in myself. Two days wasn’t nearly enough. I’ve even read some article about magnet therapy to “reset” the brain. I sure wish there were a way that didn’t involve having to try all kinds of drugs one after the other and deal with the side effects, or deal with effectiveness suddenly dropping away. It’s too big a problem for me to think myself out of. I’m hoping science comes up with something good soon. In the meantime, I’m keeping my nose juuuust about the water.
   I hear about your progress and projects and I want to be like that. I want to know what I want and to have the motivation and the energy to try it. Right now I never know if the next day I’ll be able to get out of bed and go to work.
   I have listened to all the podcasts…thank you for all of them! In one of the last ones it seemed you were talking directly to me about your not wanting anyone to feel bad about not participating and that your ending the podcast wasn’t anyone’s fault. I was feeling awful about your feeling bad about people dropping off with participation, and then you said that, and I knew you really did understand. I didn’t want to go away. I was just overwhelmed.
   Thank you for everything. 🙂 I am still here.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorSeptember 1, 2015 at 8:19 am

      Hugs beloved Suz! Like BC Dave wrote in his latest comment, once a BC always a BC. And you will ALWAYS have a place in my heart, AND in my show, whatever it turns into. Here is one source of Public Domain piano music I found. Maybe you can take your time and find one to play. I’d be more than happy to put your playing in a bonus episode as I focus on my creative life! Don’t feel pressure, this is just an offer. Maybe a candle in the dark? Remember, I have had terrible depression my entire life, so I DO understand. xoxoxoxox

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5. Christy Chadderton May 20, 2016 at 9:39 am

   I just found your podcast. I can’t say enough how grateful I am. I am only on episode 4 but have been listening to one or two a day. I am in the very beginning of admitting I have a problem. It feels good to know I’m not alone.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorMay 20, 2016 at 9:48 am

      Big hugs Christy and you are on the bravery report today for reaching out! I’m so glad that you found the show and that it’s helping. I found out by doing the show, that we are FOR SURE, not alone in these issues. The good news, is that most of the people who came along and participated were very creative, caring and wonderful people – so I’m very happy to welcome you to that group! Please post any questions or comments as you go along, even though I wrapped up the main show with Day 120, there are still some listeners around and I answer every comment. Thanks again for stopping by – especially as you were just on my famous ‘pathetic’ episode of day 4. That shows me you care. xoxoxox

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