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Defeating negative self-talk where we spiral down the hopeless rabbit hole by wishing things away. I come clean about conflicted feelings about day 130. Gratitude to BC Karen for her encouraging note and to BC Susie for her kind phone call. Reading recommendations from Rabbit, Mary S. and me. Hello to new BC Lucie. Dawny makes me laugh with her reaction to my cooking story from the last show. Mary S. surprises me by restarting up the Coffee Klatch! How to send me cards, letters or other physical items. A walk down memory lane about the cool items I’ve received from BCs in the past. A deep and heartfelt comment conversation between Mary S. and me that triggers my bravery and I share the truth about my eating behavior of late and my feelings about it.
Mentioned
Last show and comments
My Big Fat Update Show – where I speak about my Mom and my VO career
New BC Lucie’s comment
Reading Recommendations
The Chronicles of Prydain (5 Volumes)
Eating Less: Say Goodbye to Overeating
Contact page where you can get my PO BOX
Blog post and photos about the quilt from Amy in WI
Blog post and photo of the Brave Tiara from BC Suz
Show notes where you can view Fionna’s album
Ways to send audio to the show for Foolish Fun, Laurie’s Stories etc.
Ways to support the show financially
Credits
Host: Laurie Weaver
Main Theme: I’m Letting Go by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 Used by permission of Josh Woodward under a Creative Commons License
Oh I was so excited to get up and see this new episode! I’m going to call w my comments soon, but I also just finished episide 98… What a fantastic episode!! It really made me think!! I’ll send a voice message soon about it! Thanks for all you do…. You have no idea how much you’re a bright spot for me because you make me feel not alone! Thank you!
Hi Mary, thanks for the great call! Thought provoking and great quality. I really appreciate it. Hang in there, because you WILL get back on the bike, xoxoxoxox
The good news is usually they let you bike w a bad foot… That and swim, so in two weeks, I’m going to BEG. I’m in northern Illinois…. We don’t get nice weather here often and I wanna get out in it. 🙂
I’m glad the call came through! I’m not joking when I say your mad episode and today’s really made me think… Yes, this is what I want to do right now and it’s okay. Because it’s what I needed, not anyone else. Thank you again for this show!!!
I’m so glad your REALLY back Laurie.
I too appreciate the things that create pondering in our own minds.
You usually trigger something in my brain and I’m like huh. Or aha.
I hope that you feel better letting go.
And getting new/more activity again.
I never knew of the show when it was being made so I’m happy to meet the bcs I’ve listened to about about now!!! Hi Dawny!!! So glad it’s back!!
Dawny, it is so awesome that I can always count on you! You make me laugh and feel so good on this crazy journey of ours. It should be fun to see where it leads this time! xoxoxoxox
I just listened to episode 133. Oh Laurie thank you for being so honest and vulnerable when you talk about how you were disappointed with yourself for regaining weight after a lot of emotional eating in response to your Mom’s death. I so just want to give you a big hug. So sorry for the loss of your Mom. Your emotional eating is so understandable. Be gentle with yourself as you heal from your loss. Thank you for sharing your struggles and victories. Hearing your stories helps me to be stronger in my times of struggle, and also helps me to better recognize my victories. And as many others have also said, listening to you makes me feel like I’m not all alone in my ongoing, crazy making struggle to find peace and balance with food and body acceptance. Thank you Laurie. Love Susie
Susie, Thank you so much for your kind support. I can already feel some of the emotional cloud lift as I have been keeping my appointment to hike and talk through my thoughts and feelings again with you. It is still a strange sort of miracle that we are all together, even though we are separated by hundreds or thousands of miles. It helps me to know that I’m not alone in my struggles or in my victories and your comment reinforces the fact that we as people (and BCs) are wonderful caring folk. Big smooches and love. I’m grateful for your caring. xoxoxoxoxox
Oh Laurie, big hugs. I know there are times when life just hits hard and I am learning to be understanding when I just haven’t got the emotional reserves to be strong. I too have put the weight back on that I lost a few years ago.
I have been on holiday to Italy and only just returned. It was lovely to see my son and daughter in law who are now working in Sicily. Although I was able to access the podcasts late at night, commenting on them was more difficult to achieve. However, I did find that I was identifying with your loss and had an extremely vivid dream one night that my Dad had suddenly appeared at their house and there was an emotional reunion. Certainly the grief hit home more strongly way after the funeral. It is a confusing process and my heart goes out to you. When the pain hits I try and roll with the wave rather than resist it. I hope that sharing about your loss helps you. We are ready to listen. Xxxx
Big hello Miss Sue! What a fabulous opportunity to travel to Italy to see your kids. That is one of the places Mark and I would love to see someday.
I’m so proud of you for that. Weight gain is so exhausting isn’t it? Physically and emotionally. And the fact that you can understand and articulate for yourself and me that we can’t be expected to be strong in all ways 24/7, is wonderful and comforting. It is all a process, and I’m trying my best to see that stuff (to be polite) sometimes just happens. And stuff can either be carried inside of us by eating over it forever for by ruminating over it. I still want to eat for energy or enjoyment, but at the time of Mom’s death, I needed to eat as I did to understand the depth of my loss. It sounds crazy, but I know you will understand me. And that is the huge gift you’ve been for me. xoxoxoxoxo
PS, I think you are very creative. As a former database developer, I know that what you did in your scheduling took a lot of creativity, and singers interpret songs they don’t write, right? I think we are being creative anytime we are choosing and expressing what’s in our hearts – whether through a comment, a task, a painting, a song, enjoying a meal.
Thank you to Mary for the book recommendations.
Welcome Lucie we BC’s can be wild and crazy group.
Welcome Rabbit, I’m looking forward to hearing about your creative expressions.
Welcome to all others I have missed.
Here is my thought on this episode: Somebody once told me Wish, Want, Need, Got (Wishes need to become wants and needs before you achieve them). I remember thinking “I wish I had not eaten that …., made me want to eat more … then I needed to eat more… and I always ended up eating more: So I learned to quit wishing I had not done something or wishing something negative had not happened. My therapist taught me to acknowledge the thought. ” Yes, I did that, however it is in the past and will not affect my future….now I will add and I will not let that discourage me”.
Not to be crude but somebody also taught me wish in one hand and sh*t in the other and see which fills up faster. So I work to avoid using the word “wish” when discussing my past, actions, and goals.
Always forward
Forward Always
DaveG
Hey Dave I LOVE what your therapist said about your past not impacting the future. And I must ADMIT I chuckled over the PG13 version 🙂 And I WISH I hadn’t accidentally left a sound effect snippet smack dab in this week’s show that I thought I was FINALLY done with and which will cause me to re-render the entire audio mix AGAIN and make me have to LISTEN to myself for the FIFTH dang time today before I publish it and get back to voice auditions but it doesn’t mean NEXT week I’ll do that, and I won’t let it discourage me 😉 xoxoxoxoxox