1. Michelle April 1, 2014 at 7:54 pm

   Hello Laurie, I justed wanted to let you know that I am still here and wanted to congratulate you on 13 pounds lost ! I should tell you that I listen to your podcast on the Tune-In radio App, when I am not waiting in anticipation for your next podcast, you are in my thoughts.
   You were bang -on in your podcast today when you talkied about maybe people were not posting due to having struggles with their own eating issues and feeling shame about it. Weeeell, that would be me, and I am feeling shame, last I posted I had binged for a day and had listened to your podcasts over a few times and was confident I had it under control, not so, I have been binging ever since then, I have lost tract but I know it has been over a week. Then just today , I am starting to feel I can get it under control again, but the damage is done, any weight I hads lost previously will be right back on. Shame, and vulnerbility are big issues for me.
   I just wanted you to know I am still with you, and I wish all other brave companions the best as well.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorApril 1, 2014 at 8:16 pm

      Ah, my dearest brave Michelle, how easy it is to communicate when things are going well, and how difficult when we have to admit, that life isn’t going exactly as we would wish. I’m so very touched and proud of you! I know so well that crazy, mixed up hatred, hope, and sad welling over that bingeing brings. I wish I had the power to erase it from your life, my life and the lives of all that suffer from it. Sadly, none of us can do that. But, what we can do, is as you have done. Come out of secret shame and say, “I am human, and I need support”. It is probably true that weight loss will take a hit from your latest binge episode, but all is not lost. I started this podcast 8 weeks ago after I realized I’d compulsively eaten back on 23 pounds in 6 months. And that is on top of the 40 pounds I needed to lose to get back to my best weight. I hate that I’m over 200 pounds. Again. But look what a miracle this has been for me. Just talking about it has helped me. I still struggle. I still feel the Robot Aliens trying to beam into my body and control it. BUT then I think about all of you brave companions and how you all support me, no matter what I admit to you about food and foolishness and neediness and being a boob and I cry at the wonder of it. All of these 50 years I’ve been hiding. All of this time I’ve felt alone. The food going in the only comfort in the dark. I’m trying now to give you a piece of the gift you’ve given me. You are not alone, and no matter how many times you stumble, I care about you. Next time the Robot Aliens come for you, remember that and maybe it will help ward off some of that shame and give you back the dignity you deserve as a brave, brave woman.

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      1. Michelle April 1, 2014 at 10:34 pm

         Thank you Laurie for your support, you always know the right things to say. I chuckled at the robot alien thing again, it is as if something alien takes over and you have no control.

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         1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorApril 1, 2014 at 10:44 pm

            See, it’s not the end of the world when we can laugh, eh? I just found out from Maddy I made a screw-up in this episode, which will make a fun “darn-it” story for next time. So laugh on, sister, and we will muddle through all of this together. 🙂

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   2. Maddy April 1, 2014 at 9:46 pm

      Michelle,

      Good for you for sharing your struggles in writing even when you are unhappy with your slip into old eating patterns. To me, your actions of visiting Laurie’s blog and listening to the podcast indicate that you want to change and are willing to put yourself out there in order to get there. Sounds like progress to me! Keep moving in a positive direction and remember to concentrate on today because that is the only thing we can really go by

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      1. Michelle April 1, 2014 at 10:37 pm

         Thanks to you as well Maddy, I appreciate your kinds words .

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