1. Ann April 8, 2014 at 7:36 am

   Thank you Laurie! I have been a compulsive overeater my entire life. I am starting a new diet program today and meeting with a nutritionist. I was looking for inspiration last night because I was so depressed and not motivated and generally just feeling bad about everything going on. I was looking for something positive when i found your podcast on iTunes because a new food plan won’t work if my heart isn’t in it. Your talks are so honest and you share it all. Disappointments and sad feelings and grief and isolation. I downloaded 29 podcasts and started at #1 last night. I am up to #12 and I have a new attitude this morning. You have made a difference and I wanted you to know.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorApril 8, 2014 at 11:35 am

      You are so more than welcome, Ann. I’m wishing you all the success in the world with your new plan and think it is awesome that you are meeting with a nutritionist. I’m so happy my ramblings are helping you to feel more hopeful and less alone. That was my big hope when I did this publicly. I also hope to build a community of brave companions where it is safe to feel how we feel and to say how we feel around these difficult eating issues. The more we can come out of secrecy and isolation, the more we can accept ourselves and our ‘baby steps’ toward our dreams, the more likely we can build a fulfilling life where food is something to enjoy, not fear. I’m so glad you’ve joined in. Post or call the Bravery Voicemail Hotline at 206-350-6445 or leave a message on http://speakpipe.com/laurieweaver any time you would like a little extra support, or when you’d like to support others. Thanks again, Ann. I truly care how you feel.

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2. Maureen April 9, 2014 at 9:27 am

   Laurie, congratulations on your radio debut! That’s an amazing feat!

   My small positive note would be my A+ on my lab values including blood sugar levels and lipids! I was dreading the results but I am very happy with these.

   They actually found that I have an over active thyroid which was surprising in that I am overweight. Have you or anyone else with compulsive binging ever had any scary emotions about your health?

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorApril 9, 2014 at 11:20 am

      Thanks Maureen 🙂
      I love your positive note! A+ on your labs is priceless. As to my health, I’ve all kind of issues, but my blood work was always great until last year when my fasting blood sugar was at a pre-dibetes level. That’s what scared me to lose the 23 pounds that I regained once my hubby retired too. This year, my blood sugar is great, so I’m happy for that. I’m hoping now to tackle my compulsion so that I can be happier AND healthier with my eating. Last night wasn’t so good, but I’m doing really well this morning. It’s all a process of celebrating your positives and learning from the stumbles.

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3. Cheryl April 13, 2014 at 4:18 pm

   Trying to catch up here after being awol since going back to work in January. SO stoked for you about the radio thing. What a huge building block to that dream of yours. Can’t wait to see where you go with this.

   Wanted to comment as well on the fact that being happy makes us want to overeat sometimes, too. I think you hit the nail on the head about the trigger really being the wanting to feel connected/bonded with people. Ever watch TV and see a commercial where there’s a group of friends sitting around the kitchen at someone’s home chatting, or a girls’ night out group at a restaurant laughing and having a good time and suddenly you get a kind of ache in your gut or heart or whatever you want to call it? It’s a HUGE trigger for me. And if see one and I’m in a susceptible mood, we will likely have company for dinner or cards within the next week or two. Like you, I hunger for that bonding. I think one of my biggest fears is being alone.

   One other episode I recall was walking down the street in town one Christmas years ago when I was doing some shopping. I walked by one of the fancy yuppie restaurants along the way and noticed through the window a party of several couples around a table having a great time. I actually stood there at the window like a peeping Tom and watched for a few minutes. It made me feel so alone. All the way home I asked myself how my life could be so damn busy and full and I could still feel so lonely.

   I could have come home and eaten myself into oblivion the way I was feeling that day. Instead, I wrote a poem about it. I never did get down to eating anything that day.

   I mention this because for me I think often it’s that feeling of being alone that sets off a binge. It’s as if I have a hole I need to fill up. It makes no sense to me whatsoever as my life is very busy and we have a group of seven families that we are very, very close to. We’re always doing something together. But there it is, that unmistakable black hole inside me. Feels like a garbage disposal!

   Anyone else got an interesting trigger?

   Stay cool, and may the winds be with you!
   Cheryl

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorApril 13, 2014 at 7:32 pm

      Cheryl, it’s so good to see you back and to read your thoughtful comments! I so know what you mean about the “black hole” in your heart, and I think it is very touching to think of all of us, with our noses pressed against the glass, longing for good times that we think, we will not be a part of. I believe, it is another false thought in our brains, because, as you point out, we do have connections. But sometimes, it feels as if we push them away, or just don’t allow ourselves to feel them. At least, I think that is true for me. It’s all a big learning journey. Glad you’re back, my friend. 🙂

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4. Happy With My Body January 26, 2015 at 7:10 am

   I realise you have come a long way since this episode but I still wanted to stop by and say congratulations on having your “impossible dream” come true! It made me so happy to hear the joy in your voice when talking about it.

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   1. Laurie@CompulsiveOvereatingDiary Post authorJanuary 26, 2015 at 9:44 am

      Hugs and thank you Happy! You’ve brought back a wonderful memory for me by making this comment. I had forgotten how THRILLING it was to be accepted into iHeart radio on the first try. That is unusual for an untried podcast with low audience, and it was such a surprise and such a lesson, that we should NEVER assume we are not good enough. I’m very glad to be reminded of that today. xoxoxoxoxo

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