Wow, I’m jetting off to my rainy old hometown in just a bit, and LOOK what’s happened to my sunny backyard in Southern California!
I must be Miss Sunshine
Seattle-Tacoma weather should be dry during my visit so it looks like I am lucky and bringing the nice weather with me. However, it is weird I need my raincoat for THIS leg of the trip. Thought this fact was weird enough to leave you all a going away blog post to remember me by until I return. Please do post your thoughts to one another while I am away, and continue sending audio. I WILL respond and make up a new show once I get back.
A Few items:
Please do post on the Day 102 page if you can and have some thoughts brought up by the show.
If you are having technical difficulties with pages lately, please contact me and describe them. I’m trying to troubleshoot some issues with podcast pages lately. Note, that I won’t be fixing anything though until I get back. Still, if you can let me know what happened, what computer, device, operating system, browser etc. That is all helpful,
Some of you have asked for a mailing address to send cards or packages etc. I’ve added my PO Box to the contact page and I’ll post it here too:
Snail Mail:
Laurie Weaver
PO Box 12474
La Crescenta, CA 91224
Ok BCs, time to unplug and have an adventure back home! Until next time, when I tell you all about it, Take Care, and know, I really, really care. xoxoxoxoxox
Have fun, girl!
Thanks Cheryl!
I know how awesome it will be for you to go see your family and DE-CONNECT!! lol.. scarazy thinking, but, it’ll do you good..
will miss your up-beat feeds, but will eagerly anticipate your re-cap
Thanks Dawny, I’ll share some of my unplugged experience on Day 103 – once I get the chance to record it. xoxox
Stupid food foraging aliens visiting me =~\
Dawny, next time you are foraging, try calling the bravery hotline and describe what you are wanting. We can use it in the show or not, but talking it through out loud might help you identify some of the core triggers. We can call it Dawny’s Forage Report xoxoxoxox
that’s an interesting thought Laurie… =-)
Happy G’day wednesday
Whirlwind of LIFE goin on here.
I’ve been seeing a lot of stuff you’ve been thinkling about and am really coming to think. Hey!! I may not be that lil 155 pounder. Or at my ‘new goal’ of 170# or that desired first target of 180# but I’m NOT 415# & April 12th will be 3 years since I reached goal. Yay lol.
Hooray for all of your progress – weigh wise AND self knowledge wise! Awesome that you have kept so much of your progress. xoxoxoxox
this is exactly where I’m at. I keep asking myself why do I want to lose
weight. Why can’t I weigh 190 pounds I don’t have an answer other than vanity that’s the
only answer. And weight watchers. The clothes that I have right now fit me fine. My
eating is good I enjoy it I don’t feel deprived I don’t feel restricted but I don’t feel
like I’m going with wreckless abandon. My workout/activity is at a sustainable
comfortable level. I’m not embarrassed about myself I don’t feel unhealthy I don’t feel
like my weight is hindering me in anyway. But something drives me to feel like I need to
weigh less when I sit and really ask myself what and why I don’t have an answer reason.
Even my husband told me he thinks I look pretty good where I’m at right now. It all boils
down to weight watchers. I don’t know how I feel or what I think about that.
Part of me wonders if it’s because if
I wasn’t losing weight. Or chasing a number. What Witherbee what would I be doing.? Maybe
it’s that I just feel like I need that something that obsession the drive that something?
I really don’t know. I do know it’s weird.
Dawny, I don’t have an answer for this one and feel in a bit of a similar pickle. I think I have made strides in not equating my body size with my self worth (and I think this is the crux of your dilemma too), but I still don’t feel as good in my physical body as I would like. I feel still too large and heavy for the activities I like to do. I think your point is so valid about filling your life with numbers. Your experience for the last several years has been centered around your weight loss success (and setbacks) it must have become a huge part of your identity. How could it not? I guess what I’m getting at is the questions you are asking are very good. Imagine that WW didn’t exist. That there was no audience but you for your scale or your clothing size. How do you feel then? Does your body please you as is? Do you have issues as I do with physical discomfort? Vanity is ok if it really gives you great joy to follow it. If vanity is another way to beat yourself up, then maybe it’s something to explore. We all live in our bodies. We aren’t only our bodies, but they have much to do with how we feel day to day. They regulate our energy, our strength, what we can carry, how far we can explore, and in some ways, how we feel about ourselves in this physical world. I believe that all of our reasons can be valid – if our bodies can give us more positives in our life. Where it crosses the line for me, is in the ROI. How much am I impacting other areas in order to “improve” my body. Believe me, I would be on a diet SO FAST right now, if I were confident it wouldn’t set me back. I would LOVE to lose about 30 pounds, I reckon. I would improve the quality of my physical life. But I’m not there. I’m not the person who can do that right now, maybe not ever. But at least I CAN identify my wish is to make me physically more active and comfortable in life (i.e. the chair equation), and not to make me feel acceptable to myself or anyone else. I accept myself right now as lovable and valuable. I really do, I’m not just bullshitting you to sound like a new age guru or something. I really do. I also REALLY wish my body would LOVE to drop those dang pounds. Maybe someday. But for me, tempting as some diet plan may be, I know my body will put its weight right back as there is no diet restriction I can stick to forever. I’m hoping the small changes I’m making now, will add up to incremental changes toward lasting improved health and happiness. It is just so gall danged SLOW, it is tough. Though, back to you, you may actually be at a good physical weight for you. Give it some more thought and see what happens. Either way, hugs for your journey xoxoxoxoxox
You certainly are amazing Laurie, and your way with words is INCREDIBLE.. thanks for this, all the thoughts, and feelings, and your wonderfulness
I am just sort of discovering my relationship with compulsive overeating and binge eating disorder. I dig around all the time for more resources and am seeing professionals, but I have to say, Laurie, that this podcast has really become part of my daily life. I listen to it in the car and even sometimes in stores if I don’t have my son with me. I’m going in order, from day 1, and I’m at around 40 or so. You’re so much a part of my life, I expect that when I get “caught up” on podcasts, I might go back to the beginning and start listening to them all again! Right now I don’t have a lot to say about myself other than I can totally relate to a lot of the feelings and experiences you describe and it feels nice to have a common thread like that. Your words play in my head all the time and are slowly helping me think more and more about my actions and about how I can help myself to overcome my issues. Thanks so very much for what you’re doing.
Hi Lisa, welcome to the group! We all come from different backgrounds but the struggles we share resonate with so many. We all love hearing from new listeners! I look forward to seeing more of your posts.
Hi Lisa,
Welcome. I had a similar experience in “binge listening” to all of the podcasts from day one while I was getting caught up. I was totally immersed, and the podcast was like a companion in my life for several days.
And I did go back and listen to them again! You’re right around some of the most important episodes for me, which were the upper thirties and early forties. It takes some time to process all the thoughts and feelings they bring up!
So glad you’ve found a place where so many of us can relate to those ever-present feelings about food and emotions.
~suz
Hello Lisa! Welcome. I’m glad you stopped by and that the brave companions made you welcome in my absence. I’m glad too that the show has been a companion on your journey, as that was my intent. My year of podcasting has been filled with ups and downs and surprising changes, but I wouldn’t have traded it now for anything. BTW, since SO many binge listened from day 1, I made a certificate for you when you get caught up. Also, I will greet you in an upcoming episode, probably Day 103 or 104.
PS, It is awesome that you went for professional help. I’m not sure if I have yet where you are listening, but as soon as I started allowing myself to feel what my food/body obsession was covering, I too started therapy to help me deal with these emotions and issues. It is vital to my success that I got that help. Welcome again, and I look forward to learning more about you and your take on this journey of ours. xoxoxoxox