Hello Brave Companions!
I think this is the FIRST time I’ve ever wrapped up some of my breakfast when I had prepared what is a usual serving for me. I’m so used to calorie counting that I prepare and eat whatever I make! When eating out I do regularly bring home leftovers and will stop eating when satisfied since US restaurant portions are WAY OVERSIZED for what I can eat. But I have never done this before at home. Hmmm interesting. It may be that I need to serve myself MORE food so I can feel it’s ok to stop eating when satisfied.
What’s that you say body? Speak up, I can’t quite hear you!
It is so surprisingly difficult to understand body’s cries and coos after 50 years of ignoring or suppressing hunger/fullness signals. Yesterday afternoon, I ate when I knew I wasn’t really hungry, because I was nervous and edgy, BUT because of my practice could not really eat much, because I was SO aware of how full I was after very few bites. This AM I woke up with that weird empty/full feeling that happens when your gut is still working on yesterday and your tummy is empty today. I decided to eat a little and see what happens. It took very little egg and toast for tummy to feel ok. I actually wrapped up the rest of my breakfast for later. In the past, I would have tried to wait to eat for several hours until my gut was as empty as my tummy, feeling that I didn’t deserve to eat yet. This new approach of feeding tummy worked much better. I feel balanced and peaceful. My energy is now back where it should be, and thoughts of food are for once, not on my mind. Very interesting process. Again, not easy. Not quick weight loss, or even guaranteed weight loss, but right in line with my goal of living where I don’t fear food, love food, and live an integrated life where relationships with people take precedence.
