I happily discover somebody else’s prayer rocks at my upper Zen place and so send positive thoughts and prayers out to that person. I’ve found that to be a good remedy for my nerves. Find somebody else to wish well – takes the spotlight off of all that might go wrong with me.

Is it any wonder that I feel peaceful and away from my worries up here? This is about half-way to my upper Zen place/

Yesterday was a good day. I was nervous of meeting my new therapist. It’s kind of like a first date. But it turned out very positively and I can tell this will help me very much on my journey. To process some of the deep issues in my life with the aid of professional help, will help me to finally “let go” of some of the root causes of my food issues – and, more importantly, the issues that keep me from connecting as I would like with people in my life. I’m realizing more and more that weight loss isn’t my answer. It may happen, but dealing with life is my answer. And dealing with life won’t happen as long as the Robot Aliens have sway with me. So baby steps, dear companions.

I’m realizing more and more that weight loss isn’t my answer.

I’m thrilled too, that being so nervous yesterday AM, that I chose to go hiking instead of losing myself in eating. Hiking was my first thought. Even better that I chose to not record it, as I wanted to protect my back by not carrying my recorder, little book, apple, extra water etc. all of the accoutrements that are needed for my show at the Zen Place. This time, I just took myself. And that was appropriate on a day that was for once, without guilt, all about me.